I simply wanted to start over. Isn’t that what hope is all about? So I begin with a new website, a new forum, a new way of discussing ideas, hopes and dreams, with family friends, and more importantly, you, my readers. If you are curious about my thoughts, I will try to ‘revisit’ them on here. But I don’t necessarily find this a requirement. Some of my ideas may inadvertently repeat, and for that I do apologize. That isn’t what I hope to do.
At any given time I have at least three books in the inner workings of my mind. The voices of my characters interact with me on a daily basis. Once they are written down, they seem to become alive in my dreams, thoughts. But I don’t control them, they allow me a glimpse into their lives, and I try in a hurry frenzy to write it down.This isn’t necessarily something that I am proud of. In many ways people view me as ‘airheaded’ or ‘forgetful’ but that simply is not the case.I am just lost in the world of thought. I try not to offend, and be there for everyone. But in many ways I feel like I lose out on so much for simply not writing. I need to clear my mind, is basically what I am saying.
This last week or so I had wanted to set a goal, and to reach it. I failed miserably. I didn’t even set a goal. That is how terribly so I failed. I thought, well, am I dealing with depression again? Am I dealing with too much? No. Simply put I didn’t have any means of accountability. In June it will be my year mark anniversary for my first novella.I see other authors who have at least 7 books by their year mark, and it sickens me. I don’t have the time for that… but then I realize that this is just an excuse. I will have a completed, 75k book by then, no more excuses. It may not be published, but I will have it done. This means 10k a week. And I will hold myself accountable. I will write my daily amount on here, and whatever other social website I am a part of. This is my hope, my anchor this week. I will be accomplishing this.
Wish me luck as I try to have a chance to ‘spring clean’ my mind.